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The Freedom of Feeling Small (in a Good Way)

Me Ra Koh

We are home as of late last night.  I can’t tell you how good it is to be home, in my own bed, in my kitchen, with my mom bringing dinner over tonight.  Brian and I feel dead to the world from jet lag, but the kids act as if we just got back from the park!  Their energy is killing us to say the least!  But it’s so good, so good, SO GOOD to be home.  My mom’s already got me started on a digestive cleanse as of tonight—to get my body back up and running.

Blaze’s hungry tummy woke us all up at 5am this morning, so I lit a candle and dove into my Morning Pages while watching the sunrise.  I journalled about how I feel small upon returning.  I feel small in a good way.  Our trip was full of moments that were enormous, some were almost to hard to bear and others lifted and inspired us to magical measures.  But it’s good to come home feeling small—feeling small sometimes makes me feel weak.  There is no weakness this time around.

As I sort through the thousands of images we shot, this one is a favorite when I think about my Morning Pages this morning.  Brian shot this while I was shooting in the Jungle Temple in Angkor Wat.  Pascaline is at the corner of the image playing hide and seek with Blaze through the temples many tunnels.  And I’m caught up in the awe at what is in front of me, what I have the opportunity to capture.  It’s feeling small in moments like these that I’ve brought home with me—feeling awe filled with wonder and the mystery of life.


Me Ra Koh shooting in Angkor Wat Temples

Brian set up this great feature for the blog, where you can click on the image to see it even bigger.  He’s the best.

As an artist, I think it’s vital to reconnect with this feeling of being small.  It seems like I stay creative and inspired when I sense magic and wonder in the world.  When that magic and wonder start to get choked out by stress, it’s such much harder to create.  Don’t you think?  I described the unfolding sunrise this morning in my Morning Pages and tried to nurture that part of me that needs to slow down and notice the pockets of wonder surrounding me in everyday life.

There is so much more I want to say about this topic, but I’m stopping it here today b/c I am so tired.  But, it doesn’t have to end here.  Share your thoughts on the topic in today’s comments.  And also, Fay has made a special appearance on the SOAR! blog today.  Since this month has five weeks, she decided to put a bonus Business Coaching Exercise up on the SOAR! blog.  It’s all about Passion—tapping into that place of wonder and mystery that we carry within.  You must check out her exercise.  It’s wonderful.  Fay is a remarkable Business Coach who has taught me so much.  I can’t sing her praises loud enough.

May your Monday be blessed with a moment of wonder, mystery and inspiration.  May you feel small today in a way that fills you up.


Me Ra


  1. jeramy says:

    hey there friend! welcome home! glad everyone is safe and sound. excited to hear more of your journey. take care.

  2. Emily M. says:

    Wow. That is a beautiful and amazing photo.

    Glad you are all back safe and sound. I too am looking forward to reading more about your trip!

  3. Steph Mason says:

    Beautiful image, Mera. I did click on it to see it larger and I know I noticed the “wrong” thing in the picture… But your arms!! Oh my goodness they look beautiful and Buff!! I know you work hard for those babies!! 😉

  4. MeRa & Family, I am so happy you made it home safe. I am excited to see more from your trip. I hope it wasn’t all filled with sickness 🙂

  5. Welcome Home MeRa…May you enjoy “feeling small” all cozied up in your own bed, resting your head on your own pillow, snuggled up safe and sound with Brian and the kids. So, so happy you are home safe. We love you so very much our friend! Get some rest and be strengthed daily by all that surrounds you.

    Thoughts for morning pages:
    I too just returned home last night after facing the new realities of life in Washington for my parents. Let’s just say I too feel very small, the issues are immense and seam unendeing. So greatful I am small and God is so very, very big. I surreender all to He who is able and Sovereign. Here’s to peace that surpassed understanding!

  6. Natalie Johnson says:

    So glad you are all home safely. I have loved all of your post since coming through the Dungue fever. They have all spoken to me in a new way. Coming close to death and severe illness has a way of changing our perspective. I love your perspective of feeling small. I sometimes feel small and wonder what do I have that is different to offer this world and my community? My creativity does get choked out by stress and the mundane activities that go along with being a mom, laundry, dishes, dinner, homework, paying bills, and then it starts all over again tomorrow. Thanks for reminding me that being small allows me to be inspired by so much that is bigger than me, I just need to stop and look for it.

    I’ll bet home never seemed so sweet this time for you. Welcome back home!

  7. Paige S. says:

    I really loved this entry. I was thinking about this exact same topic yesterday at the playground with my kids. I was feeling the stress of the day, thinking about my To Do list and not simply enjoying the time with my young kids. I realized that photography is one way for me to stop and smell the roses. I remember what is really important in this world and capture it in a click. Thanks for sharing your feelings and helping me remember mine. 🙂

  8. Julie Watts says:

    I LOVE that concept…creativity being choked out by stress. I have begun to notice that each day, I can consciously choose which end of the spectrum I want to operate from (creativity!) and the thought processes behind both ends are very different. I am seeking to understand them, and I am finding I feel much more control and understanding over my position in the continuum than I ever thought. On days I operate from the stress end, I recognize it, and know that there’s always value that can be gained from marinating there. Overall, I’m flowing more and getting stuck less, and when I get stuck, I seem to get more from it. Totally gonna have to blog about this one too!

  9. brooke snow says:

    Welcome home Me Ra! Its moments like those that I click my heels with passion saying, “There’s no place like home!” I’m glad you’re back safe and healthy and happy!

    FEELING SMALL. I really think this is an essential place to try to stay in our life. When we feel small, we feel humble. It helps us to keep a perspective of gratitude in our life, as well as dependence. Dependence in a sense of depending on God with the realization that we really can not do it on our own.

    Its amazing to realize that feeling small does not however mean that we are completely powerless. We may be weak, but we still have power. We have power to effect change, power to influence those around us, and power to make a difference. The power, I believe, comes when that dependence on God makes us a team. When we’re working together, our weak little selves with his infinite power make all things possible.

    But feeling small is a great reminder of who really has the power 🙂 And if we always keep that in mind, we’ll see that “by small and simple things are great things brought to pass.”

    I look forward to hearing more of your thoughts! Welcome home!

  10. Kathleen says:

    What a beautiful picture – Ta Prohm was our favorite!! 🙂

  11. Nickie says:

    Welcome home!!! Thanks for sharing your beautiful image and thoughts. Look forward to hearing more of your adventure.

  12. Dana Fallentine says:

    The Jungle Book lives! Love it!

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  14. Annie says:

    What a magical place … the picture is amazing! It gives me a glimpse of a place I would like to visit someday!

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  16. Welcome home – and wowee zoee, that photo gives me chills!

  17. Rhonda says:

    So glad you made it home. I know I’m a few days behind, but it looks like you had business when you got home. Now that you’re really home. Enjoy!
    And thanks for this post. The first thing I though of when I read about being small is that, when I am weak, He is strong. That is where I want to be – making sure He gets all the glory.